My life is so odd right now, I often stop to reflect on the sheer absurdity of things. On the one hand, I'm attending a Big 10 university (at an exorbitant per credit cost), working toward a 2nd undergraduate degree in Journalism, in a major metropolis which is an absolute boom town when it comes to journalistic opportunities. Awesome! Fantastic! And even though I like to bitch about how busy and tired I am because I majorly overloaded things coming out of the gate, what an incredible opportunity I have been given to do this. That, in and of itself, is surreal to me. We won't stop short though, let us not forget the other hand.
On the other hand, I am about to declare bankruptcy (yes, still on the verge) and am stalled because I haven't been able to afford the fees involved with getting copies of past tax returns that I (very irresponsibly) could not find. Of course the rest of the usual check-to-check bullshit still follows me around...things like, am I going to have to borrow gas money or parking money again from a friend before payday, eating crap because it's all I can afford to eat...that fun stuff. Yes, if you haven't figured it out...school is being paid for by my parents, as are the bankruptcy fees. How else could I be doing all that I'm doing? Attending a Big 10 university and declaring bankruptcy, by all rights, are mutually exclusive.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is that with 6 weeks left in the semester, and lots of work to do within those 6 weeks, I'm going to try not to sulk, whine, complain and generally portray a dismal attitude. I need to be grateful for the opportunity I've been given, especially considering my financial life right now and I just need to buck up. This is a pretty good thing I've got going here and I'm losing sight of that by feeling sorry for myself. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to revel in the paradox!
On the other hand, I am about to declare bankruptcy (yes, still on the verge) and am stalled because I haven't been able to afford the fees involved with getting copies of past tax returns that I (very irresponsibly) could not find. Of course the rest of the usual check-to-check bullshit still follows me around...things like, am I going to have to borrow gas money or parking money again from a friend before payday, eating crap because it's all I can afford to eat...that fun stuff. Yes, if you haven't figured it out...school is being paid for by my parents, as are the bankruptcy fees. How else could I be doing all that I'm doing? Attending a Big 10 university and declaring bankruptcy, by all rights, are mutually exclusive.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is that with 6 weeks left in the semester, and lots of work to do within those 6 weeks, I'm going to try not to sulk, whine, complain and generally portray a dismal attitude. I need to be grateful for the opportunity I've been given, especially considering my financial life right now and I just need to buck up. This is a pretty good thing I've got going here and I'm losing sight of that by feeling sorry for myself. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to revel in the paradox!
3 comments:
Hang in there; it will be worth it in the end! :) (Imagine the poster from a Scholastic book order - cat hanging from a tree limb)
I LOVE that visual...thanks sweetie!
New post! I love your writing much more than my own. Besides, I had to leave a comment in order to get into my own blog. Hee, hee...
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