I've finally reached that place of peace, contentment, anticipation and excitement that is no longer marred by worry, anxiety, doubt and genuine freaked outedness! The last wedding hurdle has been cleared, the last fire extinguished and now, with 4 days until the wedding...everything is in place and ready and we can just wait peacefully. What a glorious feeling! My coordinator just today asked me if I was remembering to stay calm and let everybody else worry about the details. And it was only as of about 35 minutes ago that I was able to say yes! However, it was a resounding yes! I'm not even concerned about the weather anymore, especially since that is the one thing we absolutely have no control over! Just somewhere around 1 1/2 work days left and then I will have seven glorious days off.
I really must commend myself too for the way I have handled myself through this entire process. I've learned something (through the eyes of my fiance') about my mother during the planning of my wedding. She really can be quite an uptight person and very edgy. Steven noticed this virtually right away and commented on how wound she is. I guess I just never really noticed it that much before, and yet, this is the first wedding I've planned with her too! At times when I was feeling relatively calm and unconcerned about things, she would get me all riled up to the point of my becoming confused and questioning things I thought I already had figured out! It was challenging to say the least and I did have a few 'Bridezilla' moments and also times where I just broke into tears and fell apart for no apparent reason at all except to just want it all to end right then and there! I just know that everything is going to come together so beautifully and perfectly on our day, even if the snow decides to fly after all. We are beyond ready and so very excited to become man and wife.
I really must commend myself too for the way I have handled myself through this entire process. I've learned something (through the eyes of my fiance') about my mother during the planning of my wedding. She really can be quite an uptight person and very edgy. Steven noticed this virtually right away and commented on how wound she is. I guess I just never really noticed it that much before, and yet, this is the first wedding I've planned with her too! At times when I was feeling relatively calm and unconcerned about things, she would get me all riled up to the point of my becoming confused and questioning things I thought I already had figured out! It was challenging to say the least and I did have a few 'Bridezilla' moments and also times where I just broke into tears and fell apart for no apparent reason at all except to just want it all to end right then and there! I just know that everything is going to come together so beautifully and perfectly on our day, even if the snow decides to fly after all. We are beyond ready and so very excited to become man and wife.
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