Sadie, Sadie...old lady?

So, I've been floating around very lightfooted...anxious to be married to the man of my dreams. I have also been found to be singing a song from an all-time favorite movie "Funny Girl"..."Sadie, Sadie...Married Lady". My future mother-in-law (as in 3 days in the future) majorly burst my joyful little bubble on Sunday when she uttered "In 6 days, there will be another Mrs. Tilseth". Suddenly that spring in my step felt more like a 200lb anchor and Mrs. Tilseth didn't sound as enchanting as Fanny Brice made 'Mrs. Arnstein' sound in the movie. Just the idea of becoming a Mrs. was somewhat devastating...made worse with the fact that my adoring fiance' readily agreed with me when I said 'that makes me feel old' by saying 'honey, you are old'. Well, I'll still always have 4 years on him! I just found it funny, in an odd sort of way, that a silly title like that can have such an impact on the way we view things.

Oh well, Mrs. Tilseth or not...I'm still looking forward to married life, starting with a nice relaxing honeymoon next week where I will be refusing to think about work or anything else! But first, the joyous event which will turn me from Miss to Mrs. with a few words and an exchange of rings and a kiss! I guess I'm officially excited again!

I do...I do...I do!

I've finally reached that place of peace, contentment, anticipation and excitement that is no longer marred by worry, anxiety, doubt and genuine freaked outedness! The last wedding hurdle has been cleared, the last fire extinguished and now, with 4 days until the wedding...everything is in place and ready and we can just wait peacefully. What a glorious feeling! My coordinator just today asked me if I was remembering to stay calm and let everybody else worry about the details. And it was only as of about 35 minutes ago that I was able to say yes! However, it was a resounding yes! I'm not even concerned about the weather anymore, especially since that is the one thing we absolutely have no control over! Just somewhere around 1 1/2 work days left and then I will have seven glorious days off.

I really must commend myself too for the way I have handled myself through this entire process. I've learned something (through the eyes of my fiance') about my mother during the planning of my wedding. She really can be quite an uptight person and very edgy. Steven noticed this virtually right away and commented on how wound she is. I guess I just never really noticed it that much before, and yet, this is the first wedding I've planned with her too! At times when I was feeling relatively calm and unconcerned about things, she would get me all riled up to the point of my becoming confused and questioning things I thought I already had figured out! It was challenging to say the least and I did have a few 'Bridezilla' moments and also times where I just broke into tears and fell apart for no apparent reason at all except to just want it all to end right then and there! I just know that everything is going to come together so beautifully and perfectly on our day, even if the snow decides to fly after all. We are beyond ready and so very excited to become man and wife.

Ain't Life Peculiar?

This morning, as I was taking my daily jaunt to my page on "The Knot" I was just struck with the absurdity that life can sometimes bring. Perhaps that isn't the right word, providential might be more in line with my train of thought here? When Steven and I started dating last August I began dreaming of our wedding day (things really did happen that quickly) and after his proposal in September I decided to go to "The Knot" and start our fictitious page. I entered a 'fictitious' wedding date, aiming for September of '08 and began to dream some more, all the while questioning whether or not we would really make it there. This morning I went to the page (my favorite thing to do for the past couple weeks) to look at our lucky number and was struck by how crazy life can be...the number no longer read 100+ but NINE (that's right, the number between 8 and 10) and it's no longer a 'fictitious' number but an ACTUAL number. And it is no longer visited only by yours truly, but by many friends and family members as well, who are all counting down and preparing for the big celebration with us! Who woulda thunk? At the time of Steven's proposal I thought a year from then was going to be too soon and here we are just 8 months later, ready to do the deed. I couldn't be more thrilled, even in the face of such peculiarities!

18 and Life!

How funny that I should be thinking of Skid Row today. I hope that's not some bad omen or anything! My favorite thing to do lately (Steven's too) is count down the days to our wedding. I think we started at 30 or something. Today marks 18 days to go and I have had Skid Row's "18 and Life" song in my head all morning, as though my pending marriage is some type of prison sentence. Oh, to be a child of the 80's is not always a good thing.

On the contrary...I couldn't be looking more forward to the big day! We are at a point now where all of the major stuff is in place and it's just the minor details. Boy, nobody ever told me those were the ones that would really forge the migraines! There's so much, my head has been spinning non-stop. I just want to be sure everything is in place so that I don't miss anything because the last thing I want to be doing is worrying about all of it on my wedding day! The plan (which I hope to execute perfectly!) is to not worry about anything. I know things won't go perfectly but I should still be able to perfectly enjoy the day. Today I get to go pick up my ring FINALLY! We picked it out over a month ago and have been chipping away at it slowly and today I will be able to make the final payment and pick the ring up! It was so good that I had to wait though, and even be ring-less for 3 out of 4 showers, because it has helped me focus on the things that really matter. I've never been material, but let's face it, a girl loves a diamond! It will just be fun to be 'officially' engaged for 18 days before the wedding. Well, 'official' as in the way the world looks at it. Ok, I want the bling and will be thrilled to have it!